30.9.05

september 30th

whats more beautiful than having a very peaceful friday night sans the stress, unruly people, noise, peace of mind at work and with everything else. this is how evenings should be. then there's the salary for most people. friday night tapos sweldo, sweet. ;-)

since most of the people in the neighborhood are out to the beach [that is one unruly crowd], the small city is teeming with serenity. probably there is time to go out and have a peaceful night bike ride. that would be nice. and probably some good company. san kaya magandang pumunta mamaya? hmm... baka mag-aral nalang ulit ako ng german. and finish amy tan's bonesetter's daughter. but sometimes i dont feel like studying when im not stressed. kailangan maraming gagawin para pasok agad sa utak ang inaaral. may fear factor kasi yan e. hahaha... kasalanan 'to ng UP kung bakit ganyan ang studying habit ko. hahaha :-)

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yesterday, i have finally seen bridget jones diary on cable. it's really british. hahaha. full of sly dry humor. then upon the discovery of one good channel, the TCM, it is really cool hearing the blues together with classic tv shows or films. i think im getting old. hahaha... and tra la la! tomorrow, we will have more channels from dream!!! yes, starting tomorrow, we can see the discovery and the animal planet. horrah! hiphip!

28.9.05

praise, compliment or otherwise

it nice to receive a compliment. earlier today, i read that somebody has this baddest crush on me (and some other things that need to be edited out.). hahaha... is that bad? probably not, as long as she does not get crushed badly by it. hehehe...

it is interesting what means and measures individuals use to communicate their feelings. but inspite of our communication, media era, there are still those who still find difficulty expressing themselves and getting heard by others. probably instead of linking the world together, the communication of today has divided our world apart. those who speak shout and those who keep quiet, hide even more. the speakers speak for themselves and the listeners close their ears to whatever they hear. communication per se isn't happening.

oh... i am already swerving from this post. let me indulge in happiness first. :-)

busy me

it's overwhelming!!!

my life messily organized - cooking meals, cleaning/organizing my messy room (it is normally in order), studying german, biking here and there, catching up on all my pending books to read, studying flash mx, getting my hands on the guitar again, writing my soul, finding time to paint and to compose more poems and songs, a soccer ball that still needs to be kicked, understanding how to best deal with inspiration, planning future life here or out of the country, brainstorming on income generating schemes, being a son and brother, etc... etc... etc...

a gen life full of love - unbeknownst to a lot of people, i am a gen. a young person who chose to live radically the life of unity. anyway, we are celebrating the united world week very very soon and there are just a lot of things to do. the walkathon, the run for unity, the international link-up, write-ups, press releases, banner designs, sticker designs, sms messages, email messages, invitation letters, sponsorship letters, organizational and practical meetings, leadership meetings, coordination with other youth, colloquios, bazaars, mini-family fests, barrio visits to families, etc.. etc... etc...

an architectural project of a scope larger than life - coordinations here and there. mixture of engineering drawings and materials, and handling people. cost analysis and efficiency. more than a handful of end users, bogus realities, items starting without an actual thought of the problem, a very ambitious deadline, scouting of materials, government issues, research, etc, etc, etc...

many as it seem to be, my life is not segmented [yet], just categorized :-) even when everything is happening simultaneously. just like the surface of the earth is teeming with activities, everything is being pulled together by one force -- that of Gravity.

thank you for pulling me together and keeping me intact.

again i have conquered myself. congratulations... for that i get a ball of chocolate at a cup of ice cream. hehehe... maybe i should go out for a night bike ride... hmm... wait... i have to schedule that i also have to breathe.

22.9.05

newest car sticker in town

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what do you think? :-)

20.9.05

tag-gutom

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strange

somehow i find that each person who blogs would post something about something strange or weird or something like that.

mine's like this. i find it strange that i haven't written any good lines lately although all the necessary tools are in place.

rain, solitude, inspiration, time, etc...

strange.

weird.

writer's block?

19.9.05

deine dich liebener

araw ng biyernes, ika-labinganim na araw makaraan ang isang makabuluhang pagdiriwang ng pag-aalay ng sarili sa kapwa. maulan noon, umihip ang mapaningas na hangin ang paligid. may kadiliman matangi sa iilang ulap na nababanaagan ng kislap ng buwan. lingid sa kaalaman ng marami, nakahimlay sa ilalim ng mga dahon ang mga kulisap, nagpapahinga bago lumayag sa kalawakan ng kadiliman, handang magdulot ng panggigitla sa makakagunita.

unti-unting kumagat ang lamig ng ulop sa kapaligiran. ang ating bida ay lumarga sa isang pagtitipon para sumangguni ng mga kasagutan sa dakilang mago. dala dala ang kanyang bughaw na tanglaw, binaybay niya ang daang mapanganib at madulas. sa tulong ng gomang sapin sa talampakan, dumatal siya sa paroroonan ng matiwasay at ligtas.

nagsimula ang pagtitipon, nagkaroon ng bahaginan ng salaysay ayon sa mga sugo ng dakilang mago. nagalay ng mga handog. nagkaroon ng isang makabuluhang salu-salo at nagwakas ang pagtitipon.

mapayapang tumayo at tumungo sa pinto ang ating bida subalit siya'y pinigil ng isa sa kanyang mga kasama.

"huwag ka munang umuwi. kamakailan lamang ay may isang bagay dito na dumating, mukhang para sa iyo sapagkat nakalimbag sa ibabaw ang pangalan mo. sa aking palagay ay mula ito sa malayong lupain. mukhang mahalaga ang nilalaman. hintayin mo ako at iaabot ko ito sa iyo."

kinabahan ang ating bida. ano kaya itong kababalaghang ito. ni minsan ay hindi pa ito nangyari sa kanya. makaraan ang ilang sandali ay dumating na ang kanyang kasama.

"heto o. sige, aalis na ako."

bagamat malakas pa rin ang ihip ng hangin, at may bahagyang pagpatak ng ambon, mabilis na nakabalik na sa kanyang tahanan ang ating bida dala ang balutan na kanyang natanggap. nagsindi ng mga kandila at agad niya itong binuksan! siya ay nagulantang buhat ng matinding kasiyahan nang makita niya ang laman ng balutan.

at magmula noon ay nagdulot ng himala ang kalangitan at nagbigay kagalakan sa kanyang puso at isipan.

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17.9.05

kuwes-chon

what do you do if you're all tired body and soul, working relentlessly because something needs to be done and you're at the current end of the work process, then finishing your work just before dawn (after having worked much during the whole day) and waking up after a couple of hours (still considered dawn - even the sun has morning stars still) only to find out that the person you are meeting is 30 minutes late, then going to meet another person (for which the overnight work was supposed to be given), only again to find out that the person you'll meet left without even sending a freaking one peso text message, then realizing that you could just have slept earlier since the work would only proceed if the documents are given to the person who left and would be back after two days?

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To love. that's what I did.

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Now I go to sleep.