random

Man, I messed up again. Again?! Can you believe it? Can't your coconut learn from mistakes once? Do you really have to have a repeat performance? Inasmuch as I would like to shout profanities, i guess reason, love, and well being edit my words. I wonder what goes on in my subconscious.

It's funny how i had had random thoughts surface while taking a bath. thoughts about life in general. i normally take a bath before sleeping. to wash down the dirt stuck to my skin before sleeping (rubbing with a face towel doesn't work for me), to relax my muscles after my regular workout, it's like a nightcap for me.

Yesterday was different. I was hoping that the water would wash down all my thoughts. I wanted peace. Why is it that I can't have it when I want to have it? I am really allergic to this feeling. Some people like it when they lurk in the dark. Hell, I don't. I want to be where the sun is shining brightly. I want to be happy. I need to be happy. I wish I can be like harry and enchant me with a happiness spell that has a long lasting effect.

Oh well, I cannot finish this blog. Hafta leave. Must live the present moment.

I hate random thinking...